I need you, Ava.
I am desperate. For you. For a touch. For a kiss. For the scrape of your hand down my stomach. For the slide of your lips across my hipbone. The sweep of your thigh against mine in the dulcet, drowning darkness. For the warm huff of your breath on my skin and the wet suck of your mouth around me and the building pressure of need reaching release…I am mad with need.
Wild with it.
I cannot have you. I have lost you, as I have lost myself.
And so I go in search. Of myself, and thus the man who might return to you, and take you in his arms.
I loathe each of the thousands of miles between us, but I cannot wish them away, for I hope at the end of my journey I shall find you. Or rather, find myself, and thus…you. Myself, and thus us.
I am taking the long way home, Ava.
I’m losing my mind, and I don’t know how to stop it. I shouldn’t be writing to you, but I am. I’m friendless, loveless, and lifeless. You’re out there somewhere, and still you’re all I really have. I hate my reliance and dependence on you, emotionally and otherwise, and that reliance is something I’m coming to recognize. I hate that I can’t hate you as much as I want to. I hate that I still love you so much.
I hate that there’s no clear solution to our conundrum. Even if we could forgive each other, what then?
I hate you, Christian. I really do.
But most of all, I don’t.
Complicatedly (still) yours,
**Disclaimer** I received a digital ARC from The Next Step PR in exchange for an honest review. The views and opinions that I have expressed here are solely my own and are in no way a representation of the views and/or opinions of the author, publisher, and/or distributor.
Jasinda has this way with her writing that pulls you in and ensures that you are emotionally connected from the start. The Long Way Home is No Different. She puts a unique and touching spin on 2nd chance romance and you can’t help but love these characters just as fiercely as you want to hate some of the situations and circumstances surrounding this couple. At times, you want to shake Christian and Ava and at others you want to hurt with them. It’s tragically heartbreaking, but Jasinda does it so beautifully. It’s raw and captivating all at the same time, and it leaves you wondering whether you even want to continue on with it at times; I definitely had to take a breather a few times.
“I miss you, and I don’t want to. I understand why you left,and I don’t want to understand. I want to wallow in my rage, but I get it.”
From the synopsis, and without giving too much away, you already know this book is about grief and how people can grieve differently even over the same situation. Grief has a way of tearing down a person and changing them from the inside out. We see that in The Long Way Home. How do you know when enough is enough or when to try just a little harder? When everything is said and done can you still love this person that has been irrevocably changed in the worst way…into someone completely different than the person you fell in love with?
“We’ve both been altered by this, Ava. I accept the blame that is due to me. But it’s not all mine. You don’t deserve this; I don’t deserve this; we don’t deserve this, as a couple. But yet it’s what has been placed upon us, and I think we’ve made a hell of a mess of it.”
This book made my heart hurt on so many levels. As a wife and as a mother, and like I said above, at times I needed a breather. Jasinda consumed me and left me in a daze. I definitely need the next installment because these characters deserve some good…they need a win. **Jasinda, if you’re reading this…please, for all couples everywhere, give these characters a win.**
This book does end in a cliffhanger so beware!!!
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New York Times, USA Today, Wall Street Journal, and internationally bestselling author Jasinda Wilder is a Michigan native with a penchant for titillating tales about sexy men and strong women. Her bestselling titles include Alpha, Stripped, Wounded, and the #1 Amazon.com and international bestseller Falling into You. You can find her on her farm in northern Michigan with her husband, author Jack Wilder, her six children, and a menagerie of animals.